4/8/2026

I like trading quite a bit and today I made a great call. I always wait to see if my trade increases in value too long and end up with less than I could have. One day I will learn to overcome my greed and become a lot better at trading. Most of my most significant failures stem from me trying to take the whole pie instead of several small slices.

4/9/2026

I have wondered in the past but even more so now. What does it mean to be in love with a person. To take part in their lives while you take part in their's. It always seems that when I think about love and what it means to me I find myself thinking more than doing. Love itself is more than just a thought it is a course of action. It stems from passion and ideas not a lengthy thought that analyizes every facet of what you do. Looking at it this way you start to consider more of your decsions more about safty than acting on anothers behalf. Living for today is always the goal of love. Of seeing how much joy you can bring to someone's life and enhance it with your presence. To only be on guard against things that might shower you both with a lifetime of memories.

5/18/2026

I am trying to figure out what fulfills my purpose and I feel like nothing really fits that mold. Nothing feels like it truly fulfilled. Not that I am not happy. I am completely happy but I feel know that there is something else out there. Something that can make each day feels like it mattered. I had that in the past is the worst part so I know what it feels like. There is nothing better than having an absolute assurance you are where you are supposed to be and doing what you are supposed to be doing. I don't feel hopeless just stagnant. Like the movement that used to be in my life has come to a near crawl. I still trade but I have started my own business to take some of my attention away from it. I think it will keep me preoccupied for a time. In my last post I talked about love and I still don't really know but I enjoy bringing happiness to others as it is typically more satisfying. I know what I want really but I don’t think it is in the picture right now. I believe the best I can do is find an activity that occupies me until it doesn’t

5/20/2026

Today I wonder if I want to spend time with someone just because I want to have fun or because I actually enjoy spending time with others. I know of the people I meet some say it is easier being alone. I don't think I want to be like that but as I live that way it becomes easier the longer I do. Time passes in flashes passing me by without me relizing it. Am I washing down this river with speed in my ship. Does the river take me fast because I am alone or because there is no one else to slow the current? With what rights do I have to complain? I live comfortably and with the only worry being if a stable relationship is in my future what do I truley have to fear? I have everything I could ever want but still it seems as though something is missing.